Daily Devotion

Although we do not have a church to go to here I am becoming closer to God than I have been in some time. I pondered about this a lot yesterday. I think that for me church and "ministry" have been a crutch of sorts to me. I went to church listened to preaching and responded to the messages but something inside of me was slowly dying. It was my relationship with God. I know that you can not loose your salvation but you can have a bad relationship. Just like if my husband and I did not talk or relate to one another on a deep and intimate level. I needed to have a deep devotion to my Heavenly father. Well, being here and the fact that we do not have a church has made me search deeper for God in my daily life and activities. I am enjoying them so much and my spirit is awakening inside me. It is hard to admit that a missionaries wife, who has come to a foreign country to tell others about Christ has not felt the spirit moving in her for some time. Dont get me wrong I have always loved God and said my prayers and tried to read the Bible. I think that it is my motives behind it that is the difference. I am truly seeking God's presence. I need His presence. I can not get a false sense of security from fellowshipping after church with other believers. I have to rely on God to fill my cup spiritually. I am so grateful that God has brought me to this place to not only preach His Gospel but to renew our relationship.